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IT'S ALL ABOUT LOVE

3/29/2015

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Mark 11:1-14
When they were nearing Jerusalem, at Bethphage and Bethany on Mount Olives, he sent off two of the disciples with instructions: “Go to the village across from you. As soon as you enter, you’ll find a colt tethered, one that has never yet been ridden. Untie it and bring it.  If anyone asks, ‘What are you doing?’ say, ‘The Master needs him, and will return him right away.’”


They went and found a colt tied to a door at the street corner and untied it.  Some of those standing there said, “What are you doing untying that colt?”   The disciples replied exactly as Jesus had instructed them, and the people let them alone.  They brought the colt to Jesus, spread their coats on it, and he mounted.


The people gave him a wonderful welcome, some throwing their coats on the street, others spreading out rushes they had cut in the fields.  Running ahead and following after, they were calling out:
              Hosanna!
              Blessed is he who comes in God’s name!
              Blessed the coming kingdom of our father David!
              Hosanna in highest heaven!


He entered Jerusalem, then entered the Temple.  He looked around, taking it all in. But by now it was late, so he went back to Bethany with the Twelve.

I am really enjoying our daily readings book* that we are using this Lent.  The various reflections truly do touch me and make me think and, occasionally, convict me.  I read it first thing in the morning, even though I am not one who leaps out of bed all smiley and ready to greet the day.  I’m a slow starter usually - so I get up, make my cup of tea and sit down to read and enter the day – slowly.  Most days my response to the reading is something like, oh, that was nice, but one day last week a somewhat innocuous seeming reflection sat me back on my heels and ended up completely re-writing my understanding of the Palm-slash-Passion Sunday readings.

It was last Tuesday, with a reflection titled Stay Put, written by Mary Luti, a UCC pastor, that started this process.  Her writing had nothing to do with Palm Sunday, per se but that is where my reflecting went immediately.  I’d been tossing Palm Sunday around in the back of my mind all week looking for something new to say to you this year, so it was there and ready to be impacted.  


I’ve mentioned to you before that this Sunday is probably my least favorite of the year because the readings instill such guilt in me.  I leave church convinced that somehow everything bad thing that happens during Holy Week is all my fault, especially if I choose the Passion readings with their crowd cries of, “Crucify him!”  Even the Triumphal Entry reading from today  makes me feel bad because I know how fickle we humans can be - to praise one minute and condemn the next.  This particular scripture translation makes that pretty clear when it tells us that Jesus took in all the hoopla "but by then it was late, so he went back to Bethany,” as if he were well aware that all that adoration wasn’t going to last long. 


Anyway – Rev. Luti’s reflection on Tuesday had to do with sitting quietly and waiting for God to find us - rather than rushing around in six directions at once trying to find God.  And that was my moment of revelation.  I have always been an active Christian – doing the work of the church, trying to do the work of Christ, serving, helping, teaching ..... and with this reading it occurred to me that just maybe some of my “doing” was simply me rushing around trying to “fix” things – so I don’t have to feel guilty anymore.
Now I realize that this has all been a lot of sharing about me so far – and I apologize for that – but it has been necessary as the lead-up to what I actually want to share with you about Palm Sunday and all the events to come this Holy Week.


What if – just what if Holy Week really isn’t about “guilting” us into changing our behavior?  What if God really doesn’t ever want us to change because of guilt?  What if it really is – as we always say it is – all about love? 


OK - I admit - it has taken me awhile to figure this out.  I had issues as a child and I am still struggling with many of them no matter what my grown-up mind understands. Lessons learned in childhood are devilishly hard to get rid of.  They don’t go away easily, I don’t care how old you get to be.  I suspect I am not the only person here who has ever suffered feelings of guilt – whether truly earned or not.  So much of the teaching of the church, for centuries, has been specifically designed to foster that guilt in us - especially during Lent.  Jesus suffered and died and it is all your fault! and all that.


Now – I do believe it is important that when we have done wrong, when we have harmed another, we acknowledge what we have done and take responsibility for it and do whatever we can to undo the damage.  And we ask God to forgive us and – as in last week’s message – we ask for a new, clean heart so we can start in all over again to try to get it right this time.  I absolutely believe that.  And there is going to be some guilt in there.  But hopefully as we grow and mature as followers of Jesus, the harmful, sick-making guilt is going to shrink as a motivator and our strongest motivating force is going to become love – just love.  God’s all-encompassing love for us and our steadily-growing, ever-widening love for God.


I do not for a moment believe Jesus died to somehow “pay for” my sinfulness.  What kind of monster parent would demand that price?  Only humans could come up with that explanation.  Instead, everything I’ve learned of Jesus in scripture and in my life experience tells me he lived the life he chose out of love for us all – not payment.  And he died because of the way he lived.  


Those in authority, having left love behind them in their rush to power, could not begin to understand that someone would choose to live a whole life based on caring about others – and because they did not understand they felt threatened, and because they felt threatened, they killed.  That’s what we do.  Sometimes literally, with a cross or a gun.  Sometimes with a look or a word.  We kill each others’ hope and dreams and self-respect ... and we try to kill love itself.


But ..... Jesus knew this about us and loved us anyway.  Loved us enough to live his life his way, and loved us enough to die, still living his way.  And if we can learn anything here it is to choose to live our lives that way, too.  We can look at the inconstancy of Palm Sunday, and the betrayal of Maundy Thursday, and the jeers of Good Friday, and the awful grief of absence of Holy Saturday – and we can find, not guilt, but love.


We can choose to do the work of the church, we can choose to serve and help – not to expiate some sin – but because that is where love leads us – because, by love, we can look at each other and see each other with Jesus’ eyes of love -- even those who seem to go out of their way to be unlovable.  Especially those who go out of their way to be unlovable -- because they, after all, are the ones who need our love the most.


So let us go into Holy Week -- not crushed by guilt – but set to love this bruised and angry world we live in – open to seeing it as Jesus sees it – set to love it as Jesus loves us.
Amen.


*re-lent: Lenten Devotional 2015  – The Stillspeaking Writers’ Group, United Church of Christ, Cleveland, OH
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PUT A NEW SPIRIT WITHIN ME

3/22/2015

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Psalm 51:1-3,6-7,10-12
Have mercy on me, O God,
    according to your steadfast love;
according to your abundant mercy
    blot out my transgressions.
Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity,
    and cleanse me from my sin.
For I know my transgressions,
    and my sin is ever before me.....
You desire truth in the inward being;
    therefore teach me wisdom in my secret heart.
Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean;
    wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.....
Create in me a clean heart, O God,
    and put a new and right spirit within me.
Do not cast me away from your presence,
    and do not take your holy spirit from me.
Restore to me the joy of your salvation,
    and sustain in me a willing spirit.

Jeremiah 31:31-34
The days are surely coming, says the Lord, when I will make a new covenant with the house of Israel and the house of Judah. It will not be like the covenant that I made with their ancestors when I took them by the hand to bring them out of the land of Egypt — a covenant that they broke, though I was their husband, says the Lord. But this is the covenant that I will make with the house of Israel after those days, says the Lord: I will put my law within them, and I will write it on their hearts; and I will be their God, and they shall be my people. No longer shall they teach one another, or say to each other, "Know the Lord," for they shall all know me, from the least of them to the greatest, says the Lord; for I will forgive their iniquity, and remember their sin no more.

Up until now we have been discussing the kind of spiritual darkness that is not of our own choosing – one that we find ourselves in as the result of random fate, such as a serious illness or loss of a loved one, or perhaps as a result of others’ actions, such as a personal betrayal or a corporate decision to ‘downsize’ one out of a much-needed job.

The readings today seem to be aimed at the darkness that is the result of our own mindless or selfish choices.  The first reading we heard today was Psalm 51 which is ascribed to King David, written after the prophet Nathan has confronted him with his own deep guilt in taking Bathsheba, when she was another man’s wife and then arranging her husband’s death on the battlefield.  When we read this story in detail in 2nd Samuel it appears that it is all about David’s lust and then his need to cover his own rear end from any blame that  might attach to him.  Poor innocent Uriah is killed and David takes Bathsheba as his wife and at first, everything seems fine – until Nathan calls him on his own self-deception and names him for what he is – and adulterer and a murderer.  


David is no longer able to lie to himself or pretend that the truth is anything other than what is really is – and he is, finally, overwhelmed by his guilt.  God has blessed him so richly – been so good to him – and now he is forced to see that he deserves none of it – none.  He has betrayed God – and all he can do is acknowledge his guilt and plead for a new heart - one that has been cleansed from the ugliness of his sin.


David here has found himself in a darkness of his own construction - he did this all to himself – there is no one else to blame.  So he confesses his guilt, begs forgiveness and pleads for another chance – and the God who has met him there in the depths of that darkness forgives him and lifts him to even greater heights than before.


Our second reading was from the prophet Jeremiah.  Jeremiah was most likely prophesying in the days leading up to Judah’s fall to Babylon.  The prophet reminds the people of Judah that God had saved the people once before when he brought them up out of slavery in Egypt.  Even then, though the people had soon failed God and broken their half of the covenant between them, God still raised them up into a prosperous people with lands and power and plenty.  Now the people are in the process of failing God yet again by turning toward other gods and forgetting their one-on-one relationship with the God of their history.   They have not been true to their promises, and so this present doom is hanging over them.  Jeremiah reminds them that when they find themselves cast out in the darkness – a darkness of their own creation – God will still honor God’s part of the bargain and rescue them one more time - just as he had done when they were in enslaved in Egypt.


And this time – so they can never claim to have forgotten or never learned in the first place, God will write the promises on their hearts, so they can never be separated from them.  And when the people find themselves captives of the Babylonians, far from power and far from home – deep in the darkness of their own creating – they found God’s word with them with its promise of forgiveness and restoration.  And in time, God did lead them home again – out of the darkness and into the new life they found once again in God.


So, yes, both of these reading are about dark times - but more than that, they are both part of an on-going promise of forgiveness and restoration.  They are about a promise of rescue and release from torment.  They promise us that even before we slide into darkness – self-created or imposed on us from without – God will be with us in the dark and God will restore us to the light.....and, that we will grow and be stronger from the experience.


David’s reign is dated to about 1000 years before Jesus.  Jeremiah preached approximately 400 later.  But the promise given in each story is the same promise.  When we wander astray, when we acknowledge our guilt, when we ask for another chance God is there with us ready to forgive and to restore.


While we may learn new truths about ourselves when lost in the darkness, what we also learn is to live the future without fear, because we have experienced God-with-us and we are changed – forever.  This is the promise -- we will never left be left in the darkness alone.  Thanks be to God.

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EVEN THE DARKNESS IS NOT DARK

3/15/2015

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Psalm 139:1-12
O Lord, you have searched me and known me.
You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
   you discern my thoughts from far away.
You search out my path and my lying down,
   and are acquainted with all my ways.
Even before a word is on my tongue,
   O Lord, you know it completely.
You hem me in, behind and before,
   and lay your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
   it is so high that I cannot attain it.
Where can I go from your spirit?
   Or where can I flee from your presence?
If I ascend to heaven, you are there;
   if I make my bed in Sheol, you are there.
If I take the wings of the morning
   and settle at the farthest limits of the sea,
even there your hand shall lead me,
   and your right hand shall hold me fast.
If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me,
   and the light around me become night,”
even the darkness is not dark to you;
   the night is as bright as the day,
   for darkness is as light to you.

My original plan was to spend the Sundays of Lent meditating upon and talking about “Looking for God in the Dark.”  What with one thing and another, today is the 4th Sunday in Lent but this is only our second talk on darkness.  That’s how things work out sometimes.  God had other plans for those other weeks.

Each of us has had times of light and times of darkness.  Some of us have seemed to skip through life with grey and cloudy times, but no real blackness.  Others of us have spent small eternities in hell.  Darkness takes many forms: worry, confusion, grief, guilt – if you find it helpful to do so feel free to substitute “fear” for the word darkness in any these discussions.  That is basically what our talk of trying to find God in the dark boils down to – fear that we somehow deserve our misery; fear of the unknown lying before us; fear of loss; and, overall, a fear God has left us here in the dark, with no light to show us the way out.


Before we go any further, let me state, quite simply and loudly, that I do not (repeat, DO NOT) for one moment believe that God ever puts us in the dark to teach us a lesson.  I think that is a hideous teaching and quite unworthy of the good God who loves us beyond measure.  If we heard of a person who deliberately infected a child with a deadly illness to teach them some sort of lesson we would classify that person as abusive and mentally ill.  And yet, people quite casually accuse God of this kind of behavior, and much worse.  Don’t fall for it.  Bad things happen.  It is the nature of human life.  God does not send them to us.


So, God doesn’t cause our dark times – our times of fear and suffering – but yet we can and should – we MUST look for God there with us – and if we allow God to be with us and love us then we find hope and healing there, as well - even in the darkness.


You know I wasn’t here last week (at least I hope you noticed I was gone!) because I was in Sacramento with my son, Joel, who has been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer.  He is undergoing some really nasty hardcore chemo right now and simply cannot work, and, like too many of us – no work equals no paycheck.  So a group of his friends - many of them going all the way back to Junior High – put together a benefit concert to raise money to help him pay his bills.   It was a most incredible day – filled with incredibly beautiful people – many, as I said, old friends, but many others just people who heard about it and wanted to be part of doing something to help.  I can still hardly talk about it without crying – there was so much love and goodness there in that one building.  God was so very present among us.  When you are a parent whose child (of whatever age) has a possibly life-threatening illness, it can seem pretty darn dark and fear does it’s best to take over inside your head.  But this kind of love can do wonders against that fear. 

A friend mentioned after my first ‘darkness’ message that they found God most easily in the darkness, because everything is quiet and it seems there is only God and you – no distractions.  This is the physical darkness that we occasionally seek out specifically to spend time with God.


But there are the times when the darkness is not of our own seeking and we have lost even God and are afraid we are truly out there all alone – those are the times of true terror and despair.  And when we finally do hear God’s voice (which has been speaking to us all along - it just takes longer some times than others for us to hear) – then it is more grace-filled, more life-giving – then it truly becomes a word we will carry with us forever.


My point here is, as Barbara Brown Taylor, the author whose book started all this for me, says:  “...new life starts in the dark. Whether it is a seed in the ground, a baby in the womb, or Jesus in the tomb, it starts in the dark.”   We do not choose the paralyzing, fear-filled kind of darkness, but new life can begin even here.  We learn in the dark that our fear is not really running the show.  If we have to be in the dark of fear and uncertainty, we can at least choose to accept any new growth and new hope we find there, and carry them with us - long after we are released from that particular trauma.


My bet is that we have each of us experienced that kind of darkness for ourselves or a loved one.  I’d ask you to think about that for yourself, but first I have one more story to share.  I was watching the evening news a couple of days ago when I saw a story about a man named Chris Rosati.  Mr. Rosati is living with ALS - amyotrophic lateral sclerosis, or Lou Gehrig’s disease.  It is medically manageable to some extent, but there is no cure and, from all I've heard, is not a kind way to go.  And yet, this man, confined to a wheelchair and growing weaker all the time, is spending his remaining life spreading as much kindness in the world as he can manage.  He points to the "Butterfly Effect" which is part of Chaos Theory and refers to the tiny change cause by the movement of a butterfly’s wing, which can, by spreading out through time and space, eventually grow to the force of a hurricane.


He chooses to participates by randomly handing out $50 to people and challenging them to use it to do something kind.  Sometimes he hears back, and sometimes he doesn’t.  But as word of mouth passes on his story, his kindnesses grow - spreading out away from him like waves on a pond – the butterfly effect.  I know nothing about this man’s beliefs, but he has clearly found a way to do something other than sit and curse the darkness.  And it appears to feed him as much as those his kindnesses touch.  (I posted a link about him on our facebook page - you can read about one example of his giving there.)


New life begins in the darkness.....Have you had an experience of one day finding yourself beyond darkness?  A time when you have actually moved through and beyond what had seemed at the time to be an all-encompassing, never-ending darkness?  A time when you found yourself on the other side, in a new life - one where you had never dreamed of being - one to which you have been led by what you learned and experienced in the dark?


Have you known the presence of God in the darkness with you?
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AND GOD CALLED THE DARKNESS ‘NIGHT’

3/1/2015

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Genesis 1:1-5
In the beginning when God created the heavens and the earth, the earth was a formless void and darkness covered the face of the deep, while a wind from God swept over the face of the waters.  Then God said, “Let there be light”; and there was light.  And God saw that the light was good; and God separated the light from the darkness.  God called the light Day, and the darkness he called Night. And there was evening and there was morning, the first day.
This sermon was written for last Sunday, the first Sunday in Lent, but was put off to this week because we had so much illness and absenteeism last week.  This year I plan to group our Sunday Lenten discussions under the central theme of “Looking for God in the Dark,” and I wanted to wait until we were all here to introduce this topic.  Today I want to look at what that word “dark” means to us – what it has meant historically in our theological language, and also get started on what it means for each of us as individuals.

From the very earliest days of Christianity – when that originally purely Jewish belief in a crucified and risen Lord began to grow outward into the European world – that thinking was heavily influenced by Greek philosophical thought of the time, which was heavily dualistic.  Everything existed in paired opposites: Good/Evil; Spirit/Matter; Light/Darkness.  These things were held pretty much in balanced opposition – with neither side triumphing over the other but in a state of continuous struggle for mastery.  
The Greeks were not unique in thinking this way, either.  The Zoroastrianism of the Persians – the next major culture to the east of the Hebrews – was also heavily dualistic, and the Persians had a huge cultural impact on the Jews of Old Testament times through war and exile, so such thinking had been introduced into Jewish thought long before Christ, and then strengthened by the Greek thought that came in with the Roman conquest.  It was almost inevitable that the new-born Christianity would be influenced in this direction.

While Good and Evil and Spirit and Matter are more philosophical concepts, Light and Dark are things we live within every moment of our lives.  Half of each 24 hours is spent in the light of the day, and half in the darkness of night – every single day of our lives.  We know the difference between Light and Dark – we see it all around us – it is something knowable – and this makes this particular dualism a perfect metaphor for so many things.  And Christianity fell right in with it.

How often is Jesus referred to as the Light of the World?  Think of the hymn we began with today: The whole world was lost in the darkness of sin, the Light of the world is Jesus.  It is hammered into us over and over and over: Light equals Good, Dark equals bad.  This dualism has become so ingrained in us that we don’t ever think about it, or even recognize it - even when it is pointed out to us.  We use it to rank social status, for instance: the poor live in little dark holes-in-the-wall, while the wealthy build their homes largely of glass and blazing with lights.  It affects things as silly as our cultural preference for white flour over whole (dark) grains, and as deadly serious and insidious as our still all-too-painfully-common perception that people with light skins are somehow intrinsically “better” than those with dark skin.  This light=good, dark=bad is so deeply ingrained in us that it shapes us in ways we never, ever think about.

But – did not God create the dark as well as the light?  Are not both part of that Creation that God declares to be Good? To be VERY good?

When I was a child I was terribly afraid of the dark, but it was a carefully parsed out fear – applicable in some things but not in others.  I grew up in a small town in the house my great-grandparents had built.  It sat in a big lot - probably equal to 2 or 3 city lots today – and because it was already old it had lilacs as tall as the house, an ancient elm that was older than God, a fig tree I loved dearly and a big empty field just perfect for crawling through on my belly, playing cowboys.  Some of my happiest memories are of summer evenings, long after the last daylight had gone, playing hide-n-seek in that big, dark space.  I wasn’t afraid of that darkness.  But when we went to bed and the lights were turned out the closet and the floor of my room became filled with unnamed horrors and I was terrified to turn over in bed.

I don’t recall ever sharing this fear with my mother or sister.  I would have been embarrassed to admit to something so dumb.  I just lay there, frozen in fear, until I fell asleep.  And the interesting thing I’ve realized as an adult is that, even as young as 6 or 7 I knew perfectly well – intellectually – that this fear was ridiculous.  I knew perfectly well there was no horror in the closet or under my bed.  But knowing these things did not lessen my fear one bit.  Because I really wasn’t afraid of monsters - I was afraid of that great “unknown” out there.  I was afraid of things well beyond my control –   beyond even my mother’s control – and when you’re small and your parents can’t control things it is time, in a child’s world, to be very afraid.

I recognize now that my fears were largely based in loss.  There was a lot of death in my childhood and I needed the light to be able to see the people I had left so I could hang on to them and they couldn’t slip away in the darkness, too.

But this is exactly my point, this Lent – for each of us, our fears stem from different life experiences and darkness means different things.  For some it may manifest itself in a fear of the literal dark.  For others it may be a fear of the unknown future.  For others it might be an unnameable fear that clouds our spirits.  The dark takes many forms: depression, despair, poverty, illness, heartbreak, anger, jealousy...and on and on.  



Where is the darkness is your life?  What is the fear that lies at it's roots?  My hope is that, over the weeks of Lent, we may be able to find – in ways we can truly believe – that God is, and has always been, in our dark places as well as the light.  And maybe we can even find that we can learn to live at peace in that darkness, with the grace we find there.

This is not a new or original thought - people have been writing about it for years - not just 'getting through' our dark places but actually growing and learning from them -- finding comfort and affirmation in them.  I admit to having been stimulated into thinking about the dark again by discovering and reading Barbara Brown Taylor’s Learning to Walk in the Dark.  This is a wise woman and I hope to share some of her wisdom with you in the coming weeks, and maybe discover some of our own.

Here’s a sample of her thinking: When, despite all my best efforts, the lights have gone off in my life (literally or figuratively, take your pick), plunging me into the kind of darkness that turns my knees to water, nonetheless I have not died. The monsters have not dragged me out of bed and taken me back to their lair. The witches have not turned me into a bat. Instead, I have learned things in the dark that I could never have learned in the light, things that have saved my life over and over again, so that there is really only one logical conclusion. I need darkness as much as I need light.

Next week I would hope that some of you may feel free to share some of your understanding of the dark and how we can find God there.  Meanwhile, here is one more quote from Barbara Brown Taylor to ponder over until we gather here again for Part 2 – something she offers as “good news”:  ...even when light fades and darkness falls – as it does every single day, in every single life – God does not turn the world over to some other deity.

Good News, indeed – to know that God is still one God, not two halves of a dualism.
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